Cray times, cray people.

I am back online.

So a lot has happened the past year. We realised that our grandparents gave their all for our family. They literally did. They sold our house and gave all their life savings to my parents to "sustain" the business. But it's actually for gambling.

I shifted out with my siblings in September, staying in a 1.5k sqft apartment for 2k/mth. Cheaper than a 4 room HDB. The best part, don't have to pay for parking and I get amenities like swimming pool and gym.

We have learnt so many things. We have learnt how to wait and discern for God to show us the way. It is not like a bright green arrow that guides us there. It is more like a gentle nudge and an assurance (peace, zen) that we have made the right choice.

Os took a major step. We prayed and we said if we managed to raise money for his 1st year of dentistry then he will proceed to study Dentistry in Adelaide and drop Physio in SIT. Lo and Behold, we did. He also managed to find a 100/week rental 20 minutes walk away from school. Praise the Lord.

I have never been so sure about God in the past 25 years of my life. We struggled, we had to still make difficult choices. But we came out stronger. And we continue to grow and learn.

In other news..............

I got married on 7th of January 2016!!!!!

Its a bittersweet feeling. Couldn't invite my parents for various reasons. It drove a nail to my heart. But I had to do it for the sake of my wife and my siblings. We had to dissociate for our future. We will definitely want some form of reconciliation. But it will be when my siblings have graduated from Uni and are more stable in life.

On a happier note, I am so blessed to have so many friends who are looking out for me. My bridal party is a testimony to that. My Bestman who is my bestfriend in life showed me how much he is willing to put his neck out for me. In an all christian setting and with a few friends that he don't normally hangout with, he created conversations with them and made me feel comfortable for him.

I was super worried that he won't be able to take it. But he handled it so well. The bridesmaids were all very happy with him. My extended relatives were happy for me that I have a someone whom I can call a true friend, a comforter and a super good advisor.

Although he is not Christian, I pray that he is secretly. Because unlike other people, who will beat their chests and call themselves christians but have no substance, my bestfriend will not boast and make empty promises. I want to see him in Heaven with me and my family. He is really a good guy and I hope he will find a nice girl that will not give him any problems because he has enough on his plate as well. But knowing him, he is one who will never back down from a challenge. Unique things catches his eyes, so it won't be a surprise if the girl he falls for will be another challenge.

He might have the physique and mental strength to overcome challenges, but he is still a squishy heart inside with soft sides of him. Well he cried badly during my wedding. And we both know deep inside we connect really well and we know each other through and through. That's also why we hate each other and sometimes we can be abrasive against each other.

This holiday, I also got closer to Cheng, she is having a huge battle within herself to change for the better to keep the good values and reject the values that are not worth holding on to. I only have 2 words for her. Struggle on. She is not the person people make her out to be. And if only people will get to know her better. If only she allow mentors to speak into her life and refine her in that process, she will be a powerful individual with strong convictions and the boldness to speak them. Looking forward to feast with her.

Well now we have an even bigger headache after Os's overseas decision. We have a housing issue. It is not wise to continue paying for rent. So we are looking at the Bukit Batok Estate behind Hillview. It is 4 bus stops away from Hillview MRT and 3 bus stops away from Bukit Batok MRT :)

We just hope that we can go as low as 380k to make it a fair deal. Car and I will be able to afford then.

The next decision is whether Cami should go for law in Murdoch Uni. Thats 160k for 3 years. Something that is not too tough to raise but we will need the funds for Oscar.

Dear Lord, now I know why a simple and an impossible idea can prosper. There is so much things we have to pay for and it's only one tiny Xavier Chng. But proverbs says that He uses the weak to shame the strong and the poor to shame the rich. I pray that the path of humility is something that I will continue to take. Eating the humble pie can't be that bad since I love eating.

As for my wife. My lovely wife. I cannot begin to even write in words how much she means to me. How thankful I am for her. The random hugs and notes I get from her can just light up a dull/bad day. Sometimes I wish I don't have to work so that I can lie on her lap and read a good book the forever.

She has this sinus problem. She will get multiple ulcers in her mouth like 15-20 ulcers (i kid you not) before her period and her nose will start dripping like an open tap. That's when you know that her period is coming in a week's time.

I feel her pain and I see her cry and weep whenever it hits her bad. I feel like shit because I don't know what to do. She will be seeing a specialist soon and I hope that it will help. I'll make her hot tea and switch on the air purifier because those are the only things I know for sure that will make her feel better but not for long. HELP. I feel so pissed off that she can't be healed.

And to my partner Ian. The most patient man on earth. I don't know how he does it man. haha To more years of money making ahead. Very super materialistic and money minded now because I need the money at this point in time.

Help.