hey hey.
haven't really got the time to blog
but thankfully this last paper is gonna be relatively okay.
since i have been doing accounting for so long and i keep getting stuck at the fundamentals. it's quite boring !

Anyway, Saturday was fusion and no words could describe how brilliantly awesome it was. Planetshakers was good. The crowd at the third session was the best cause it wasn't crowded there was enough space for everyone.
and Sunday went for some talk by planetshakers in the evening it was great fun !
with the BAM! and stuff.

i have been really clumsy for the pass few days i keep knocking my wound till its like a bump now. cause when i it hit on something a wound would appear on the wound
gah I'm confused.

I think it's LUKE LIM's BIRTHDAY. oops=)
haha
exam in 5 hours time man!
better study
bye!

How great Thou art =)

As I grow older I somehow have the tendency to think that God isn't real and that those things that I have felt in church were just mere emotions. Or that the bible is just another moral textbook which tells us about the right and wrong. I'm not sure if it's just me but I tend to forget that God has changed my life by simply just giving me a brand new mind and heart. And I'll never forget that encounter in sec 1&2 church camp.

Looking back actually gave me the assurance that this God is real. He moves !
no offense to Buddhists but I grew up in a Buddhist environment and after so many years of a variety of offerings nothing happens. You might argue with me with a whole lot of theories to try and prove me wrong.
(I apologize if anyone should feel angry after reading this, I blog in peace.)

But I dare say that this God of mine never change and never fails. All He need is a little bit of faith, a heart that will honestly say God I believe in Your son Jesus Christ and admit that you have sinned. And a miracle will take place that will change your life. Unbelievable? Believable.

Those who will hold on to God till the end of days will have eternal life. Being a Noah Jr. and building your own boats with your families in it really takes courage , determination, patience and discipline. People will mock you and try to tear you down, but are you firm enough in God to last through this race?

I guess it all boils down to one thing, to dare to try. I've always have trouble
understanding why it is so hard for people to accept a God that needs His people to love Him and that's all !

Ah well, that is something I will never be able to grasp. If it was this easy there wouldn't be missions.

just some random thoughts.
I'm super tired

Xavier.

Hey guys,
It has been awhile.I doubt anyone would read this since its a forgotten blog.
I write to vent my anger and also some thoughts.
Just so you know I'm alive and kicking just really pissed at myself.
Anyway, I've been trying to be a good boy, kinda like finishing up assignments and with a whole lot of commitments that I should just neglect instead.
Just remembered about a few forgotten assignments that will bloody cost me a few percent about 15% plus. FYI this module is 5 or 6 credits so ouch there goes my GPA. I still don't understand how Mechanical systems can be a real estate's business course core module. WHAT THE HECK.

I never did understand this God's grace that was given so freely for us or at least for me, and I still don't.
Someone reminded me that I can never understand this grace until something goes really wrong with my life. It's kinda true cause we've been living in such comfort and luxury, that we've taken this grace for granted. So much so that as Christians we don't even behave like we have received this grace.
I don't really know how to put it in words but seeing God alive in my life a few times wasn't enough. In another words I'm thirsty for God to see what He have in stored for me I just don't have the determination to seek Him.

Every single time i try, never once am I not distracted by my surroundings like mostly people and cars.
I think i need something to burst my pride bubble. I need a really sharp needle to poke my ass so that i can think, remember and not judge.
Oh yeah people around me will know that i am forgetful. so forgive me =)
and I really pray that God will give me a mind that will help me to remember.
i don't want to be 1 minute Tom or something.

I really pray that this will be put into action like get myself a planner and organize myself.
I've been really cranky(short-tempered or retarded), blame the weather bla bla bla. yeah that's life and I've never learn how to actually say from the bottom of my heart that my life rules. =(

Xavier have decided to follow Jesus and be changed. Please pray for me =)
I am gonna study like I've never before. remind me to =) haha

alright night guys
sleeping time.