hey hey
it was a really weird day
i woke up early today but i felt super lazy
so i got myself hooked onto the tv
ahhh the life of hols haha i love it man
just pure slacking
haha afterwhich went out for christmas shopping
that totally went off track
met luke sim and shamus at fareast randomly
so the four of us including luke yan went over to esteler
met bok bok to buy hospitality stuff for "The Stand"
then went on to buy christmas presents
i was left with 10 mins of that
walked through bugis street (it took us more than 15mins)
it's super crowded la
with techno and occasional shouts from the vendors
went for a meeting after that
and carolling prac yupp
more shopping tomorrow!
NIGHT
haha

hey hey
woke up early today (9a.m)
hahaha
hmmm super retarded
i ran for 3km then started walking
haha super weird I felt giddy while running
have a stupid npsu thing today
but gonna go for carolling later i guess
don't feel like going for npsu la
hmmm i shall take a shower before i decide =)
ahh
just a thought while i was walking back home
from the weird run
Jesus came to fight a battle 2000 years ago
and the battle has been won
so why are there still people fighting
yes and why is campus crusade called campus crusade
and not something else.
hmmm a crusade is defined as war/holy war
intriguing...
maybe i have little knowledge about it but
it'll be kinda cool to read about it hahaha

Xavier =)

sleep !!!
argh something that i've been deprived of for the past few weeks
more stuff to do during the hols
christmas party was okay
just that it felt more like a year 2 and 3 party
ah well only 4 year ones was there...sucks
but the food was good ! guess who did food
obviously it'll turn out great haha

stupid la had some gift exchange and no i didn't get one
yea haha
gonna sleep soon

trust God always
Satisfied about your life?
have it filled with the spirit and you'll be empowered by the Holy Spirit
some awesome truths that dillon taught us today

oh yeah shoutouts to christmas comm
thanks for helping had some fun working with you guys !

gonna sleep now night

ahhh finally got some time to spare
for this miserable blog that no one reads
thats fine i love talking to myself anyway
get to know who i really am i guess

so hey just came back from a meeting and a movie today
I felt really bad for being late
But other than that they're just gonna ask me about updates
for the food thats gonna be catered
I dont really see the need to be there
just tired and lazy i guess
sorry for being so irresponsible
I'll change

anyway BOLT was awesome awesome awesome
loads of morals to learn from it
must look deeper i guess
thanks Halim, Luke Yan, Choey and Faith.

all the best for your project yanny yan yan (luke)
hahahahahaha

uhhh really really trying to sort out my various commitments
i really wanna do eveything but i can't
i live really far and time is limited Gah !
i am really really sorry
scold me to wake me up please !
I'll improve i need some time for changes
The least important that is on my list now is prestiege
yes that.
next would be stags
then i'll be fine

"Nothing is impossible through Christ who strengthens me"
its in my own words i think cause a bible is not with me.
haha
but yeah God is the "Great I Am"
therefore
I M possible =)
there.... so nothing is IMpossible

Lord strengthen me I pray
For i am nothing without you.

Unveil Tomorrow !

Love,
Xavier

wohooo 2 more papers to go.
Computer Drawing (Friday) & Econs (Saturday)
Sucks man haha...
saturday paper !!! stupid econs !!!
IDS was okay today,
can't hope to do well, simply cause my drawing sucks..
alright guys super tired now
and i hardly ran a half marathon ah sucks man.
i was super bored so i decided to take a shortcut haha
about 14km plus minus.
second time from Loyang to Changi Beach.
haha
sucks man
BIG TIME
Gonna study soon

God give me strength and determination !
Let Psalms 51 be my prayer ! the prayer of David.
Thank you Lord =)

Gonna eat now! Night

Oh Yeah Wanna give a shoutout to Manda
HAVE FUN IN PHILLIPINES !!!
Bring some durians back for me i don't mind
DIAMONDS =)
hahah

Hey Hey!

Birthday shoutout !!!
Damien, Prash, Ken Chin, Jun Ming !!
Happy Birthday all you people !

Alright. Kinda miss church camp and all
Just wish that church camps will never end.
God was there and His spirit was uber strong.
One of the strongest I've ever felt.
I feel like crap now (not because of church camp.
I hate myself. Because i have no determination,
no self control, i feel like crap.
I just wanna kill myself,
What the hell is wrong with me!?
Go away Satan you suck loads

ahhhh anyway church camp can't describe it too awesome.
Days sped by, we should have powers to control time.
So busy preparing for games during camp,
Kudos to Ryan, Becks, Games Comm, Damien, Luke Yan, Ben Tay, Logs Comm,
Su Fen, Bernice and 1 Peter
For spelling out the word Fun to me during camp.
I really hope that we'll learn to trust God in whatever we do
Enjoy Life and Stay Clean !!!

Night !
Xavier :)

THE FOLLOWING POST IS FILLED WITH TRUCKLOADS OF NEGATIVENESS
READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK !!!!
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God please help me fix my guitar.
I feel weird without it ! Argh
Angry with myself
everyone's flying going for vacations while i'm stucked here
on this safe but miserable little red Dot
so sad.
why do common tests even exists.
isn't everyday a test in itself already
so tired
I've never felt so drained before
what happen to the energy i had in camp

Its gone, everything's gone
I wanna get free i wanna break this thing
i wanna just sing God's song everyday
Hyms, praise, worship anything !

"For I tell you the truth anyone who knows the word
and does not put it into practice is futile."
(it's in my own words btw)

I feel like a hypocrite.
God help me.
I love You, and i need You oh God.
Be with me I pray.

Argh this world, i despise.
The God and Church I Love
Help Me Forget and I'll never Do it again this I promise
This my covenant to You My God.

FOREVER AND EVER
Xavier Chng

(bring me to a place where i can forget everything of this world
where i can just hangout with You, Alone.) Help Me