Entered long into EUR/USD at 1.29500 to scoop up a few pips before going short at 1.30. But i was heading to Malaysia and I was afraid that my prediction would be wrong. So I set my stop loss at 1.29450. I was disappointed to see that my stop was triggered and it rebounded to 1.30. My current position is a short at 1.3. Looking at current news and moving averages. I plan to hold it till next Friday. I suspect it will hold. This prediction was done with my studies on moving averages over a month. I used a daily time frame. Will be following the headlines closely for signs of price change. Xavier.

Just Got on the Forex bandwagon in July- September. Opened an account with Phillips Futures and deposited SGD 3000. I made an initial loss of about SGD 1500 due to my lack of diligence and knowledge. I started with Technical analysis and fundamental trading with Investopedia and random web browsing led me to Forexlive It was a very adventurous start with stupid entries and exits from my trades. But I matured as time passed and money burned. I started to realise the importance of orderboards and the significance of technical trading. I started to learn how to hold certain losses and when to let go of the other losses I made. I realise that emotions can really mess up a trade that you have intentionally planned. Nowadays I am revisiting theories from technical analysis and applying them hand in hand with orderboards and Headlines. Though the market could already be discounted. I learn to squeeze a few pips out. I'm still trying to play with back to back orders that carries a risk of reversal trends. Army really prevents you from moving on with whatever you want to do in life. I will be out for the next 3 days and will be back on Friday night. I hope to get a good schedule. I have to rely on my sister to key in trades for me, for now. Xavier

Sometimes when we reach a certain height in wherever we are.
We get a little cocky... we acquire an air around us...
It sucks... I hope I'll never be like that.
The worst thing is, we don't know we have it and no one says anything.

But if ever our friends tell us, we swipe it aside.
It's just a passing comment.
Sometimes friendships turn sour and when we look back,
we wasted time. We could still be friends.

Maybe I'm thinking the whole scenario in my mind.

See this is life.
Imagine someone puts it too strongly to you.
You might even feel discouraged.
I think I would.

If a low confidence friend thru your encouragement came out of his hole.
And he saw that being confident have it's pros.
He starts to become so confident till it reaches a point of arrogance.
What do you do?
You know it's potentially dangerous for him but you don't want to burst his bubble.
Now that's hard right?
Haha so I guess I should tone it down and be humble then...
Hopefully he sees it and he changes too :)

I'm not a very humble person anyway.
I too, am a arrogant white horse.

signing off,
Xavier

I was just thinking.
Is the company capable enough?
Capable enough to be scalable?
Capable enough to be the biggest laser tag service provider in Singapore?
We are getting known, no doubt.
But at what speed?
We need to come back again to synchronise our steps again.
So that we don't step on each others toes.

What I want the company to cater.
We want to do a lot of things.
We want to be able to cater to all demographics.
How are we going to make our company exclusive.

Although we sell our tea for $1 compared to $5 Starbucks coffee.
What is our selling point?
To make our games affordable and to share the fun of laser tag.
Both friendly to the young and the old.
We are definitely student friendly.

What are some of the skills that we possess that we can sell?
Teamwork?
How do we do that?
Do we have a lesson plan for each game?
Can we learn through that?

We need to define the path we choose.

Emo. I HOPE the clothes thing won't come back again.
Nvm. When I enter army. I can't see shit.
She can wear anything she wants :(

Having a bad day today.
Gonna try smiling it away to keep myself positive.
Just wanna give up LT.
But I can't I have so much to prove with that.
Family, Friends and My Future UNI.

This is life, it a process of maturity to be able to fight for the things that matter.
And pull back for those that don't really matter.

Well I had a great day yesterday.
Spent much of my time with Carissa.
Macdonalds for brunch, chicken rice for lunch and popcorn, nachos and MOS burgers for dinner.
A day well spent.

Feel much further away from God.
Did things that are not pleasing to Him.
Knew it but pushed it aside.
I just pray that God would take this "disease" away from me.

Trying to do something with my life.
But I'm so lazy.
Better wake up from this nightmare soon.

I wished I was 5.
I went everywhere with no worries.
Did everything with child-like innocence.

Growing up is tough.

I hate SMSing...
Why can't people just call?
Must type so long to explain...
It's like neverending smses... just keep coming...

And whats up with the stupid questions on facebook?
Read the description and you will know what the group is all about!?
KK chill... Must be the weather.

Had a good lunch with Carissa at pizzahut
LOVED IT :)
Talked about our future and how I'm so excited about the future.

But,
"Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring forth."
Proverbs 27:1 NIV

So here I am, back to reality.
If I really want a future for us,
I must wake up, start studying and earn some cash.

Stop being sticky and judgmental.
Treat everything with love.
I've yet to grasp the the true meaning of love.
I hope I do soon.
I want to pray for self-control and discipline.
To pass my NAPFA and SAT with Gold and 1900 at least.

Should I continue with Laser Tag?
But it feels like a lost cause to me.
I'll Do what I have to do and see how.

Dear God,
Help me to have a greater passion for you.

Came across this:

A son asks his father, "What can you tell me about politics? I have to learn about it for school tomorrow. "
The father thought some and said,

"OK, son, the best way I can describe politics is to use an analogy.
Let's say that I'm a capitalist because I'm the breadwinner.
Your mother will be the government because she controls everything,
our maid will be the working class because she works for us,
you will be the people because you answer to us,
and your baby brother will be the future. Does that help any?"

The little boy said, "Well, Dad, I don't know, but I'll think about what you said."
Later that night, after everyone had gone to bed,
the little boy was awaken by his baby brother's crying.
Upon further investigation, he found a dirty diaper.

So, he went down the hall to his parent's bedroom and found his father's side of the bed empty
and his mother wouldn't wake up.
Then he saw a light on in the guest room down the hall,
and when he reached the door,
he saw through the crack that his father was in bed with the maid.
The son then turned and went back to bed.

The next morning, he said to his father at the breakfast table,
"Dad, I think I understand politics much better now."
"Excellent, my boy," he answered, "What have you learned?"
The little boy thought for a minute and said,
"I learned that capitalism is screwing the working class,
government is sound asleep ignoring the people, and the future's full of crap. "

Although I can't vote.
I'm not pro opposition or pro PAP.
I'm rooted for the one who shows servant leadership.
Someone who will apologise to his people and move on.
Not cover up or act "macho".

On a side note.
I love my girlfriend.

Xavier

We do what we do out of love and sometimes,
how we hurt so much when we commit so much.
But we still push on for love.
To show the world what love is.
I hope it'll followthrough.

She knows my blog. I told her awhile back.
No one reads this blog other than me, or so I thought.
She reads it too.
After every 2 days we fight.
The trend is coming back.
We will tire ourselves out again.
Like what she said better to see each other over the weekends only.
So she can concentrate on studying.
Been trying to do that.
Did pretty well last week.
Only met her in the morning for 2 days.

We agreed we said things cus of raging emotions and to get attention from one another.
We agreed to move on.
Looking back at my posts I know why you're pissed.
I understand.
I hope one day we can read them as relics or history books that will remind us not to be like that to each other.
Cus it's hurtful.

This break will help us see each other in better light I hope.

Mum made awesome lunch.
Trying to live each day with less thoughts about you is my greatest challenge right now.
When I enjoy things I do, I will think about how we would enjoy it.
WHen I hate it, I promise myself not to include you.
Constant thoughts of you are driving me insane.

Xavier

I wanna remember the best times we had together.
The times where I surprised her at random places.
WIth candles, food and humble gifts.
We had the best time during our stay in Sentosa:)
Spending quiet times walking down the beach together.
Have late breakfasts and awesome lunches and dinners.
I felt very special.
But the way you make everyone feel special kinda marginalized me.
I know I'm getting way more. DUH.
When you make other girls feel special I'm like whatever....
But when you make other guys feel special, I rage inside.
But there's a tiny battle that happens in my mind...
Fighting the rage with memories and assurance.
It's just worse when you don't mind standing arm to arm with another guy
when there's SO MUCH SPACE.

I remember when I was 14 and I was in the train.
This hot girl accidentally brushed my hands and it felt like heaven.
And when some hot girl take notice of me and even takes the initiative to text me first
IT FELT LIKE THE BEST THING ON EARTH.
THE GUYS AGREED WITH ME ON THAT.
SO I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FELT THAT WAY.

BOTTOMLINE. When you're attached be less touchy with other sex to escape unnecessary problems.

I'm just really thankful and I appreciate that she's trying:)

The lack of sensitivity and boundaries with males, shows how important I am to you.
I hope I will be less sensitive.
But the natural instinct to show other males who owns her is damn strong when boundaries are crossed.
Jealousy and potential rage...

Why must she be the only one in class to sit with the guys?
Why can't she be like other girls and be friendlier to girls than guys?
Why open up so many unnecessary possibilities?
Can't she just understand me?
Must she be so open-minded? Brains can fall out you know...

I love her personality, that's why I got together with her.
But her outgoing personality ironically kills me.

She's too comfortable with people too fast.
It's like a sped up friendship. Then something happens and "kaboom."

I've heard too many sorries to forgive, if something do happen.

I know all these translates to insecurities and it is unhealthy.
It seems like I don't trust her?
I just don't want any possibility of anything that can contribute to the fall of a person.

Let's not lie... Being unaware of how touchy and over expressive can lead to situations
that you might not have intended.
Then, "sorry" and "I shouldn't have done that" will be such a pain in the ass.

When I explain to you and you get angry, it's cause you preconceived the convo before I end.
Listen to the full thing. How I started it and how it ended.
If you don't, and just get pissed over my first sentence without hearing me out.
Obviously you will be pissed.
Cus it is a halfway story in your thoughts and you let speculations of what I meant in.
These preconceived notions then breaks us apart.
Because you think that I'm thinking of you in negative light.

This totally blots out who I am to you, what we've done together, what we've done for each other.
That means the good times.
Anger and hysteria sets in to kill and destroy the relationship.
Because that's not what I meant.
But it killed us.
Your own thoughts did. Because you didn't want to hear the whole thing...

Is it bad for me to comment on my girlfriend's inclination to accept
random friend requests from people she don't know?

Stayed up the whole night to finish up my lesson for today.
It's on John Chapter 5 and how if you aim to please God, He will look on you with favor and give you the best life.
Saying is easy. The doing part... Just gotta be stronger.
How I wish life was easier... Just say and you'll do it.

OKay I didn't really stay up...
I slept for 4 hours? haha
I was nodding off...
Oh yeah I'm at coffee bean...
I'm quite tired now...
I think I need to sleep once I get home.

Had a huge battle. My fault for being too spiteful.
I'm sorry I played the guilt card.
I'm sorry I was ranting at you.
I'm sorry I made you feel so small.
Hope you're better now.
Hope I'm forgiven.

I've always kept in my heart that if you love someone "pride" is really nothing.
Love is not about loving the person for who she is.
It's about loving the person for the good and bad traits.
To concentrate on the good traits so that they can outshine the bad trait.
And then tell them to improve on the bad trait that is important for life.
Iron sharpening iron.
If you just accept the person for who they are then whats the point?
Then I say you really don't love the person.
Because you don't help them to become a better person.

But you must be willing to accept your flaws and change them.
Then both will go through a changing process together.
Okay I'm nagging.
It's love that changes us to strive towards what our partners like and dislike about us.

I've learnt something from all the fights with my mum.
Don't do any rash talking or actions when you're angry.
It does no one any good.
True story.
You'll regret what you say, what you did and what you didn't do.
And that is not walking away to get your head straight first.

If you're too loose with words, the person you really love won't feel special.
Cus everyone gets the same stuff.
I thought sweet nothings are for couples.
But I was proven wrong.

I thought I was that sparkle in your eye?
I guess I have to share the space in your eye:(
I thought I was everything to you.
But I guess I'm part of that everything:(

I don't see other people talking to their mission trip kids like that.
Only somewhere along the lines of "I miss yous" and 'hope you're doing fine."
Nothing overly serious till it sounds like they're attracted to each other like couples do.
I don't feel that special anymore.
I just feel that it's weird to talk this way to someone you barely know.
2 weeks or less but the talk seems like a 30 year old friendship.

We're into 7 months and I only got those expressions recently.
Maybe over expressiveness do speed up and skip the natural processess that a friendship ought to take place.
We tend to forget that the people who loves us most deserves that kind of expressions more than anyone else.
I'm talking about God, Parents, Family, the other half, teachers who touched our lives...

I just feel that the words used on me are recycled.
I don't go around saying "I love you", "I miss you" or "you're that sparkle in my eyes" to other people so easily.
Only to my other half and people who have been through with me most parts of my life.
Not a 2 weeks friendship.
I feel so crapped up that a 2 weeks friend got to you while it took me months.
Take it slow... we have to be more cautious as we grow up.
People get more scheming, complicated and crazy to make friends with.
You're massively friendly... I GET IT BUT...
Don't be too anxious to open yourself up.
Cus when people stab you in the back, you can only blame yourself for opening up too easily.

Just talking myself haha.
Nobody reads this anyway...
Blogging is a dying trend.

:( I really needed to rant this out.

Maybe it will all end soon.
Gotta set my landing gear and land back to reality.
Hope the people I love most will be there for me all the way.